{"id":497,"date":"2010-11-29T23:54:17","date_gmt":"2010-11-29T13:54:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/?p=497"},"modified":"2016-01-05T09:12:41","modified_gmt":"2016-01-04T23:12:41","slug":"goodbye-my-darling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/2010\/11\/29\/goodbye-my-darling\/","title":{"rendered":"Goodbye My Darling"},"content":{"rendered":"

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My Sweet Angel<\/span>
\nJanuary 10th 1996 – November 19th 2010<\/p>\n

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My beautiful girl, Jessie, passed away on friday the 19th of November, and I feel like my heart has torn out and gone with her \ud83d\ude41 She was the sweetest, most patient, loyal and loving friend I could ever have hoped to have and I am very grateful for the almost fifteen years we had together but I also want to scream it’s not enough… I want more \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n

She was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease in August 2009 and since then I’d been doing everything I could to slow the deterioration of her kidneys but they were failing, and she was suffering, so I got a travelling vet to come out and she said that there was nothing else that could be done and that kidney failure is a horrible death and it could go on for days with her suffering just getting worse, so I patted her head and talked to her while she was put to sleep \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n

I miss her so much and I have been haunted ever since by the suffering in her eyes and also by the moment in which the light went out of those beautiful eyes but a couple of days ago I received a sympathy card from the vet, who was so very kind and caring, and in it she enclosed the poem below which has really given me a great deal of comfort.<\/p>\n

If it be I grow frail and weak
\nAnd pain should wake me from my sleep,
\nThen you must do what must be done
\nFor this last battle can’t be won.<\/p>\n

You will be sad – I understand
\nDon’t let your grief then stay your hand
\nFor this day, more than all the rest,
\nYour love and friendship stand the test.<\/p>\n

We’ve had so many happy years,
\nWhat is to come will hold no fears.
\nYou’d not want me to suffer… so,
\nWhen the time comes, please let me go.<\/p>\n

Take me where all my needs they’ll tend,
\nBut stay with me until the end,
\nAnd hold me firm and speak to me
\nUntil my eyes no longer see.<\/p>\n

I know in time you too will see,
\nIt is a kindness you do for me.
\nAlthough my tail its last has waved,
\nFrom this pain and suffering I’ve been saved.<\/p>\n

Do not grieve that it should be you
\nWho must decide this thing to do.
\nWe’ve been so close, we two, these years,
\nDon’t let your heart hold any tears.<\/p>\n

~Author unknown<\/p>\n

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\nJess at three months old and so full of energy
\nand curiousity<\/p>\n

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\nNine months old in October 1996 and utterly
\nirresistable<\/p>\n

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\nWith her frisbee and her football in 1997. She
\nloved having things thrown for her to fetch
\nand had a big collection of balls that she was
\nalways excited to add a new one to<\/p>\n

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\nMe and my girl in 1999<\/p>\n

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\nNine years old in 2005<\/p>\n

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\nShe loved to swim, especially if she could
\ncombine it with her love of having something
\nthrown for her to fetch<\/p>\n

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\nThe face of an angel
\nJuly 2010<\/p>\n

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\nEyes shining with her wonderful intelligence
\nTaken just 5 weeks ago
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Goodbye my darling, may your spirit fly as free as the wind…<\/em><\/p>\n

And when I join you by and by
\nTogether shall our spirits fly
\nIn heavenly realms so sublime
\nForever spring will be our time
\nFor only will our bodies lie
\nIn yonder field<\/em><\/p>\n

~ Andrea Da Costa<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

My Sweet Angel January 10th 1996 – November 19th 2010 My beautiful girl, Jessie, passed away on friday the 19th of November, and I feel like my heart has torn out and gone with her \ud83d\ude41 She was the sweetest, most patient, loyal and loving friend I could ever have hoped to have and I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[34],"tags":[33,32,13],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=497"}],"version-history":[{"count":20,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":509,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions\/509"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=497"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=497"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/piecesofmyheart.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=497"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}